What's your point?

∼February 28, 2015∼

You looked me in the eyes and said:
"But girls shouldn't behave this way. Tell me why.

When will people stop trying to read what I am thinking and why I do what I do.

I can be with whoever I want to be. I can be however I want to be. For the most shallow reasons there may be or the most significant reasons there may be. 

Bottom line is: I decide things. I don't decide on things based on what you think is best for me. And most definitely not as "a female".

I am happy because I choose to be happy. I don't need to conform to your view of how society or your view of women. Oh please; I am old enough to know that I have much to learn, but if you just bring up one opinion which clearly tells me you says double standards — then don't blame me for thinking that you're narrow-minded and I will point out that you have one. 

I am sorry for myself and you — that you feel the need to put out those negative thoughts when you speak to me. That's a shame.

Why can't I do what you do merely for the reason that I am female? Just think about it. If you know it's a double standard and it's stupid then don't bring it up. 

Mothers and fathers create beautiful children so the can be subdued and controlled by others and society? No. You don't. You create these creatures so they can gain wisdom from life and be smart enough to make their own decisions and stand by it.

My happiness is not your happiness. Even if I am unhappy with my decisions, I am still happy that I made the decisions on my own. Screw what you want me to do.  

I don't need your approval. I don't need your acceptance.  What I do; I do for myself. When will people stop having double standards and let me live my life instead of questioning it.

What works for you; that's excellent, good and what not. What works or doesn't work for me; is still my business.

Even when I am in control of things, I might not be. Don't put me in a box because I don't want to be in.

Maybe women have it easier than me. We should just do what's told. 

Do this, do that. Don't use your brain. Just do it.

But best believe; I have never been the kind of girl to do the expected or just because you tell me to. If I want to have shallow life(according to you) while I enjoy the simple perks of life; then let me. 

Don't try to belittle me by saying that I should seek something more meaningful because my eyes aren't yours. You will never be able to understand my way of life. I see what I see. Everything is colored and one moment I see it this way; and the next moment I see it that way.

I have no interest of being stuck in the same place.

Thank you. Yet another day where I learned the tricks of the trades.

#forevergrateful for the ground we walk upon.<3 and for my beloved sister and best friend who accept me for who I am even when they don't understand my ways. The unconditional love I have for you.

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